I hate.
Mirror,
I despise.
My face
Shows nothing.
Not a touch of beauty
Pure ugliness.
My body
Misshaped curves
Dark complexion
Utterly horrible.
My smile
Long gone,
Or have God forgotten
To carve it on my face?
My heart
Torn
Broken
Rejected.
My soul
In pain
Full of hatred
Full of odium.
My head
Filled with pain and anger,
Evil thoughts,
Sins after ugly sins.
My hands,
Covered in invisible blood
From the hearts
That I have intentionally hurt.
Fallen one I am,
Thrown away
Neither beautiful,
inside or out.
Gave up.
Sorrow floods.
Hopelessness,
Despair.
Dark… are my days.
Dark…are my ways.
Darkness is where I should be
Because of my evil deeds.
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The day when You came into my life
The day when I decided that I could not go on
The day I place my broken heart in your nail-pierced hands
The day You set me free from it all.
Jesus Christ, My love
Jesus Christ, My Lord
Jesus Christ, My savior
Jesus Christ, My all.
My face,
Now shines
With radiance
That You lovingly bestow upon me.
My body,
I now see no ugliness
For You have painstakingly
Molded and shaped every inch of me.
My smile
Now plays frequently on my lips
That sings for You,
Because You are my joy.
My heart
Mended by Your healing hands.
Filled with Your love.
Swells with Your presence.
My soul.
Hums In delight,
Because You have filled it
With hope, faith and love.
My head
Overflows with
Awe and praises to You.
Abundant in blessings that You gave.
My hands.
Washed clean by Your precious blood,
Now raised high,
To worship You and You alone.
Fallen one I was,
But You choose me despite my ugliness.
You lifted me up,
And made me beautiful to You.
New found grace
That I’ve discovered in You,
Over comes my sins,
Covers my wicked ways.
So that I can stand in the light,
Holding Your hand,
With the assurance,
That I am so loved by You.
*Jottings*
Lord Jesus.
I don’t care what the world put in my way,
I will still love You and put You first for all You’ve done.
You save me from the pits of sins and set my feet on a firm rock.
Renew my love for You again and again,
I don’t wanna love You less,
But more and more, and by faith,
I trust that whatever I am doing now is right.
I choose to love You, Lord.
Because You choose to die for me.
And because of that I am what I am today.
Beautiful in your gaze.
But I don’t want to be contend
I wanna grow more and more like You.
But I need Your strength, and grace
Whenever I fall.
I know You’ll catch me.
You promised not to leave me nor forsake me
With the faith You have given me I shall press on.
With thanks giving and praises to You, my Lord.
Thank You.